so i've finally decided that i'm done here. moving! where to; undecided.

Actually, did I really fuck up our relationship, or was it you?

I'm starting to believe that you were the one who fucked it up.

Then again, I'm probably the only one out of the two of us who can't let go up till now. You have moved along so much. But to be honest, I still think I'm ahead of you. Both of you.
03:45


I don't know what I had hoped to achieve by going back to view your profile again. To see that maybe I was right, that you would have seen clearer what you wanted, and that what you wanted was not her?

All I got out of it was heart stabs all over again. Am I being intentionally thick, to go digging into my wounds? I mean, staying away from you was the whole point. Out of sight, out of mind. Some people need to TAKE A HINT. If you see me, don't say hi, walk in the opposite direction. If you happen to run into me, don't stop, whip out your phone, pretend to text, and walk on by. That's the path you've chosen, stick to it, and don't turn around saying you wish things could go back the way they were.

"You can't just chop up a relationship into discrete parts and pick the ones you want like a buffet." I've come to realise that I'm very much an all-or-nothing girl.

I'm not there yet, but one day I will be. I'll be able to look at the pictures of both of you, and the heart wouldn't twist nor palpitate anymore.

Like I told Henry, I still think it's your loss. And he summed it up very nicely for me. I'm not that kind of girl that you want, nor am I interested in being that kind of girl that you want. I may have started out thinking that way, but now, looking at her, I see just how wrong I was.

I suppose everyone thinks that I'm already over it, and that I'm holding this stupid grudge for far too long, and that one day, maybe in the not-so-distant future, we can go back to being the way we were a year ago. But I don't see it. Like I said, I'm an all-or-nothing girl. With regards to you, I think I'll stick with nothing, thankyouverymuch.
03:24