so i've finally decided that i'm done here. moving! where to; undecided.

oh yeah. i'm quite sad and pissed off that serena actually has a blog that she didn't tell me about. granted, i do have her access to her blogger account, but you know, it's really upsetting that your friend sort of has a double life that she refuses to tell you about.

apparently she blogs all her 'holier than thou' stuff there. kinda irritated that she somehow seems ashamed to let me see it like that, don't know lah, just sort of the feeling i get while i was reading it.

and then that day she was like 'i feel so bad everytime i go out with you.' like WAH LAO, ashamed of me now is it? bitch.

and plus she gets on my nerves everytime she tries to drag me to tampines to study with her. like please, i don't need people to study with me when i go out to study (much less you). and you can stop trying to make me go to tampines for you, because frankly, i've been giving in to you the whole of last year and i guess partly this year too, and i am damn sick of it. like i have so much time to waste on you bitch.

spending time with you is getting kind of stale, we seem to be doing the same things all the time. honestly, i don't think we have much in common at all other than choir, which i guess was what kept us going.

i can't be botheed to keep up with all the latest gossips in school about what's/who's hot and what's/who's not, you can't seem to keep your nose out of it.

you don't understand my musical influences and choices. needless to say, i don't get yours either.

i can't stand how you're so competitive in the subjects we take together.

i think we're done, but i don't know how to put it nicely in your face. oh well.

i should make it a point to stop bitching here, it just seems to make me look like such a boring and uninteresting person on my main blog, when i actually have so many opinions about things. haha.
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quite frustrated, though i know that what i'm going to blog is probably mostly my fault.

what's this talk about the 3 of us being a clique? when i feel so ostracised in a way when i'm sitting with atikah and enkee. come on, i'm not dense, i can feel it.

somehow i start to withdraw a lot when i'm with atikah. like i have absolutely no opinions of my own at all. is it just me? or is she just being so damn bitchy that i can't stand it. i don't know, i'm forcing myself to laugh at her jokes today, and she's somehow able to just evil laugh so well.

i'm not bitchy enkee, atikah is. gah.

i guess this is why your secondary school friends called you bitchy like what you told me the other time. i think i see it in you now. maybe siti and aisyah turned you into something you're not, i don't know. but you're definitely too mean for my liking now.

i mean, yah lah, if you make fun of the girl who doesn't bathe once in a while it's okay, it's funny, but to make it running joke of the year? i don't think so. you don't even need to SEE her to start making fun of her. like, hello?

and somehow i kind of get the feeling that enkee's being influenced by her. she never seems to be this mean when it's just me and her.

I DON'T KNOW LAH.

i hope i never turn out like that one day. well, maybe i am already, but i just don't realise it yet. maybe someone views me the way i view atikah.

oh yes, junhui is another one who's irritating the HELL out of me. i mean, what's up with her attention seeking ways man? like, get a life can. i guess she and hanrui would make a perfect match lol, go compare stories with each other lah. stop bothering me. sheesh.
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