so i've finally decided that i'm done here. moving! where to; undecided.
 licia! entries done Wednesday, 10 August 2011 Fitting In
Not. I know I'm the odd one out in many places; it seems like the people I fit in best with is blitz, and it's only when Daolin is there to complete the odd group. Somehow it just feels so... competitive when he isn't. Just wish he were about 30cm taller. Oh well, that's something you can't really change can you. I remember Yuwei once saying this: "You'll never know who you fall in love with. Maybe he'll only be 1.5m tall." Then how? Give up, I say. Though a small voice inside me says no. But I know it's never going to happen. My life is full of the what-could-have-beens. What if I were normal sized? What if I were chio? Or had studied harder? Or learnt to keep my trap shut and stop being so straightforward and borderline offensive? Maybe then I'd have made it past the OGL interviews. Or be able to declare out loud my love. I really feel that height is such a disadvantage. For girls. Especially when they're not chio. Or the tall and thin type. I'm sorry I don't fit into your stereotype! I'm lazy, don't like to study, don't like to bathe, don't like to keep grievances to myself, and more liberal than most people I would think. Not necessarily in a way that I would show others openly. Psst. Also, I agreed to go for Campus Crusade's FOC. Probably going to be the most happening thing happening this summer break, since I got rejected as an OGL for fall orientation (cronyism FTW). Though, I'm not very sure what I'm hoping to get out of it, when I've already made up my mind about religion. Trying to get out, and yet falling deeper into it. Well done. Yes, sour grapes me. Don't get in as OGL, blame it on cronyism. But still extremely pissed off over the whole resume thing. That Jasrin girl obviously thinks nothing of me, since Teri submitted her application without a resume and yet got to go for interview. And become an OGL. Me? Got snubbed, requested a 'proper resume' from me before they were willing to schedule me for an interview. Had to go down on a Monday when I didn't have school at all just for a 10 minute interview, and still got rejected after staying up to type out a resume for you. Sorry I have opinions about how you run the FOC nightwalk and my previous partner. And sorry I don't do impromptu games. FCUK. Cronyism FTW. Also, people who live in glass houses should not be throwing stones. You don't cheat, and then turn around and call another classmate a cheater. And then go all Justice League on them. Awesome named coined, not by me unfortunately. This has been mildly therapeutic.
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